I woke up feeling ok, but as soon as I check the cat room, the spiral begins. Someone pooped on the floor again and right in front of the boxes; I clean this up before anything else and then, I feed them (yes I know, what goes in comes out), Squeeky cat throws up almost as soon as he’s finished gulping his breakfast. What is it with cats? Every day, the same nasty bodily dumps.
And, while I’m complaining, for several days my coffee has not had the taste I most enjoy. Did Starbucks change their roasting process? wtf? I love their French Roast, especially whole beans so I can grind my own and really get the full flavor. Lately it tastes flat and stale. Maybe it’s just me?
So… by the time I get to making the stale coffee, I’m already stressed and feeling like a bitch for being angry with the cats who no doubt are also feeling trapped. When it isn’t 12 degrees out with a four inch blanket of paw-cutting, crusty snow, they always head out their cat door for a morning walkabout after breakfast. The reality however is that it is the peak of winter here in the Catskills along the banks of the Delaware River. Even the birds and squirrels are reluctant to go on their daily foraging jaunts. I have also been secluded in my living room/studio for too many days in a row.
Sobbing with tears running down my cheeks
So, I finish the clean up and put my new Willow & Everett kettle on in hopes that today’s coffee** will again have the taste I crave, but first, I pour some of the hot water for Sammy cat’s thyroid meds and a bit for my essiac tea and, as I do every day, I prepare to invoke a daily wellbeing blessing.* However, I instantly break into a sobbing, tearful mess! I could not even get through the first line. So, when I finally calmed down a bit, I just pleaded for guidance to get me out of this depressing spiral.
With the tears wiped away and my mediocre, but hot, coffee in hand, I headed to my usual routine and opened emails. I choose to read the inspirational ones first, so clicked on Mike Dooley’s Thoughts from the Universe message that included the TEDx talk by Dewitt Jones.
And I knew this was a response to my plea for guidance!
*My daily request: Divine Diamond Golden Source Light, energize all of today’s fluids, solids, thoughts, beliefs, emotions and actions to align with the energy of total wellbeing and love across all dimensions, known and yet to be known, across time and space for complete physical, mental, emotional balance and harmony.
** I don’t use a coffee maker. Prefer to boil filtered water and pour through a paper filter. Always make it fresh, by the cup.